A Transgender Volleyball Players’ Path to an NCAA Women’s Team | Identify

A Transgender Volleyball Players’ Path to an NCAA Women’s Team | Identify

CRUZ VOLLEYBALL TEAM.) (THIS IS HER STORY.) The best way I can describe it, when I was a kid,
and it’s your birthday and you have your cake with all
the candles in front of you, and people always tell you to
make a wish, and blow out the candles, well, I cannot explain why
it was my wish, but I had always wanted to be
a girl. It was just something
HOMETOWN AND TRANSFER TO UCSC.) I would say volleyball came
very naturally to me. It really helped me get through
high school. A lot of high school, I was not
having a very good time. – How’ve you been?
– I’m good. I’ve missed you. I’ve missed you too,
my little baby. You want to have some lunch? – Sure, yeah. Sounds good.
– OK. So that’s Chloe’s graduation
picture. – Haven’t seen that very often.
– No. Chloe, you know, through middle
school and stuff, super athletic and everything,
which was great, but Chloe barely made it
through high school. I mean, seriously, by the
skin of her teeth. When I hit middle school,
I started to get really sad because I realised that I was hitting puberty,
and I absolutely hated the way my body was changing. I wanted, you know,
to be more feminine. I wanted to be a girl. Looking back, I had absolutely
no care about anything. I didn’t want to be at school,
I had no desire to do homework. I ended up getting kicked
off the volleyball team my junior year, because my
grades had dropped so low. I realised that what I was
feeling was being transgender. I really just didn’t want
to exist. – You want a Coke or something?
– Sure. – Yeah, I’ll take one.
– OK. Here. Is that a… What is that,
grapefruit juice? Grapefruit juice. Mind if I have some of that
with the Coke? No. Whatever you want. When I came out to my mom,
it was pretty funny. I came out immediately after
getting off the plane from when I was living
in Texas. I was picking Chloe up
at the airport, and that’s when Chloe told me, “I’ve got to follow
my true essence “of who I am as a person.” You know of course you’re like,
“Uh, what?” As a parent you’re wondering,
“Oh, my gosh.” You know? Initially she was really upset
and I think confused, and she didn’t have a very
positive initial reaction, and it took her a while to really come around
to accept me. I’m going to miss you being
gone, I mean, it’s been tough and you need
some support, and… I’m definitely glad that
you’ve been there. A lot of issues I’ve had
over the years. Once Chloe talked to me,
and I was able to embrace it, and I stopped trying to
convince her to not do that, and I just stopped
making it about me – cos it’s not about me, it’s about Chloe and living
her best life, and then I saw the wonderful
things that she was doing… How could you not support
somebody to be their best person
in life? She was the first major
supportive family member I had. So are you getting excited to
play volleyball and…? Yeah, I think it’ll be…it’ll
be fun. It’ll be an experience. It was pretty nice to have
my mom being supportive. She came out to a few of
my volleyball games, and it was great. She’s a very loud whistler, so it’s very easy to spot
when she’s at a game. – Love you.
– I love you too. – Drive careful. Bye. Transitioning has definitely
had a lot of ups and downs. I’ve had some of the lowest
lows since starting, and some of the highest highs
since starting. It’s…been a lot of mixed
feelings. There’s a lot of people that made me not feel like
I was welcomed, and there was a lot of average
everyday things that made me feel like
I was distant or in a different world
than everyone else. (SANTA ANA,
for a college team. When I realised I was doing
fairly all right in a community college team, I figured that I’d try and push
for an NCAA team because it’s taking it
to the next level, and it’s trying to prove
not only, like, to myself but to everyone that told me
I couldn’t do it, that I could. I had looked up schools
in different divisions, and of the division two schools
that I spoke out to, only a few responded when
I disclosed that I was trans. Very quickly I got rejections. I don’t know if it’s
connected or not. The myth that trans athletes,
specifically transgender women, have an advantage in sports, I
feel like it’s kind of a fear. It’s an unfounded
scientific fear. Growing up your whole life,
going through puberty, you’re kind of understanding
how your body works, you know, you get used to it. Well, transitioning is like going through puberty
backwards, the other direction,
twice as far. There’s a noticeable difference
in my athleticism. For the first few months on
hormones, like, I had a lot of
muscle pains and my shoulders
would hurt a lot, and I realised it’s
all my male muscle going away. It was pretty challenging
at first just having all my muscle
basically melt off my body. I definitely can’t jump as high
as I used to. I’m driving to meet some
friends out for dinner, since it’s the last time I’ll be able to see them
for a while. – How are you guys?
– Hey. – Hi.
– Hi. How are you? I’m going to miss you all
a lot. Awww! It’s really not an easy process having a good friend group, and having people to be there helps me transition easier, cos without that sort of
scaffolding, I feel like it would be a lot
harder for me to pursue what I wanted to do. I’ll see you all soon. – Very soon.
– There she goes… (AUGUST 18TH) (MORNING OF CHLOE’S MOVE
TO UCSC) It’s funny, the last thing
I grabbed before leaving was actually my, uh,
Dungeons & Dragons dice set. I was thinking, I’m like, “If we’re gonna play D&D
up at college…” All righty. It’s, um, 5:52.
So almost 6:00 am. I woke up a little early,
and just sat in bed and stared at the ceiling. Like, “Go back to sleep
for the last ten minutes!” And I couldn’t seem to do it. Should take us anywhere from six to maybe
seven and a half hours. (SANTA CRUZ, CALIFORNIA) We’re currently in Santa Cruz. The drive was, uh, tiring, but overall it wasn’t too bad. This campus is literally on a
redwood, like, national forest. So I think we’re going
the right way. I have no idea. We shall see! All right. Cool. I think my biggest concerns
with having a new team is just making a new
relationship with the coach, making a new relationship with
my team-mates, and some of them can speculate
if I’m trans or not, I have no idea. Well, the first person I spoke
to about going to Santa Cruz was Coach Morgan. (COACH MORGAN)
(UC SANTA CRUZ VOLLEYBALL) Chloe e-mailed me,
and she said, “I’m a junior college transfer “and I’m really looking at
UC Santa Cruz,” and I think in the same e-mail was when she told me that she
was also a transgender athlete. Because I had gotten rejected
from division two schools really early in the fall
semester, I wanted to make it very clear
for the schools I was interested in D three that I was just going to
disclose it immediately. UC Santa Cruz does have a very
open environment, and we really try to
make that known. I sent her some footage of me
playing, and she was really interested
in me. What I noticed with Chloe was that she’s a strong
volleyball player. She has a lot of power, and she’s also tall. We’re going to follow the trail
around a little bit to the McHenry Library
where the team meeting is. (CHLOE ATTENDS HER FIRST NCAA
TEAM PRACTICE) Last night, at the very end of
the team meeting, Coach Morgan was like, “I think we should come out
to the team tonight.” and I was like,
“I’m not prepared for this, “but…sure, that’s fine,
I’m cool with it.” And the team read an article
after everyone had read it, Coach Morgan told the team
that I had written the article, and that I am a trans athlete. I was kind of, you know,
shaking my legs a little, fiddling with my hands… because I wasn’t sure
how the reaction would be. And there was just silence. And I’m just sitting there
like, “Oh, no, I hope this isn’t
a negative reaction,” but it wasn’t. It was just me
overthinking things. We all read Chloe’s article. I think most of us had already
read the article cos we’d met her at tryouts, and so you look up your
team-mates on Facebook. Coming here, like, it’s really
more of an open community and like, open-mindedness, it’s like a big aspect
of the, like, college here. I don’t think, like,
anyone on our team has anything like, “Oh, my
gosh, “she’s transgender.” I don’t think that was ever the
talk between any of us. It was more of just looking
at her as another person that’s coming and trying to
take, like, your playing time. The only question I got
afterwards, the funniest question
I could have been asked, was, “Are you an English major? “Cos this is really well
written,” and it was like, “Oh… Thank you.” UCSC is a very liberal campus, I think you either
get the programme or get out. You either accept it or
you’re not welcome here cos we include everyone. Today we’re practising
as a team, but there’s also going to be
a few little preliminary exercises
and whatnot. I’m just so fortunate that my entire team
has been so supportive, and there wasn’t any
awkwardness. Everyone was just, “OK.” And that’s honestly the
greatest feeling ever. I’m just excited to finally go out and
play with the volleyball. Hearing them talk about
going to nationals, and I can’t believe that it’s
actually come to this point, and that I made it this far. Cruz on three.
One, two, three, Cruz! Knowing that everything is at
the point that it’s at is absolutely amazing. All my life dreams are
literally coming true. I never expected any
of them to. – Bye, Chloe.
– Bye. See you tomorrow. It’s hard to describe to people how happy it makes me
to be here. At the end of the day I’m just
a person that loves volleyball, and I want to play it. I just love the sport
that I play, and want to try
and continue to do it, so I just keep pushing
to make sure I do.

92 thoughts on “A Transgender Volleyball Players’ Path to an NCAA Women’s Team | Identify

  1. You mean this is HIS story you freaks and retards. The human race really needs to go extinct. A joke to this planet.

  2. “Hard times create strong men. Strong men create good times. Good times create weak men. And, weak men create hard times.”

  3. "If you don't accept everyone then you are not welcome here because we accept everyone on this campus…"

  4. She is a strong volleyball player..and also very tall..

    Much like the Male volleyball players

    Such a joke.. I dont mind trans people..they should be accepted and loved..but let her compete in the Male division..or a seperate trans division..you cant put this person up against other biological woman n then be amazed when she thrives..

  5. it is not that i don’t support transgender females, it is that i don’t support them competing against biological females. they have an advantage that biological females can’t obtain.

  6. Transgender females have significant physical advantages over biological females. Cloe is misinformed. This is an absolute travesty to women’s rights.

  7. Gender dysphoria is a psychological malady. It is NOT solved by letting sufferers PRETEND to be what they are not.

  8. 'Everyone was too fearful of the back lash to speak the truth, and honestly that was the greatest feeling ever'

  9. You're cheating! You're not BIOLOGICALLY a woman, stay with the men's dressed as girl. Sports is now f *%$ up thanks to political correctness, the LBTG lobbyists and the DemocRats.

  10. Disgusting… All those hard fought decades for women's right, just so political correctness can gradually strip them of everything again. Great.

  11. 8:58 He got a single.. UCSC is "open" but not so open that they will actually room a guy & with a girl.

  12. This is BS! Why is it so hard to understand that its unfair to have men and women compete against each other

  13. I watched this entire video without realizing it was posted by the OLYMPICS!?
    "UCSC is a very liberal campus. I think they were like you either get the program or you get out. You either accept it or you are not welcome here because we include everyone."
    …? what is this world?
    This person is a man. He is a complete man.

  14. I just want to be a girl… and then compete against other girls and kick the tar out of them with my natural advantage.


  16. If their estrogen and testosterone levels are not equivalent to that of a woman they should not be able to participate 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️. I love the idea of being equal but there is a difference between being equal and FAIR

  17. You either accept it or you get out, cause you're not welcome here…. also we welcome everyone here…. lmfao……

  18. Says it’s a myth while showing a clip of them running 20 feet in front of the rest of the team 😂

  19. "Transitioning is like going through puberty backwards the other direction twice as far"
    Oh, so did you become 6 inches shorter after taking hormones Miss Over-Six-feet-tall?

  20. I feel sorry for these people. Its a bona fide mental disorder. But I feel sorry for the REAL female athletes! They’re getting robbed. Mediocre male athletes are now champions. THIS IS ALL SOOOOO WRONG! And the reason you’re going to get away with it is because the ULTRA liberal has made it impossible for anyone to disagree w this foolishness. Their wrath knows no bounds! They may not say anything to your face, but I guarantee 99% of the real female athletes despise you. Men do not belong in women’s sport. Period!

  21. This is a man. Not a woman and has absolutely no business whatsoever competing on womens sports.
    (No, I didn't watch the video nor do I have any desire to.)

  22. Its not a fear, its plan unfair for you to play as a woman. Im happy for she is finding herself but as a biological woman i would never hav a chance against her in any sport. Where is my right to fair sports opportunities?

  23. Be honest with yourself, be who you are. If that means you identify as boy/girl/other good! That same honesty also means you shouldnt lie and say that the fact that there are physical differences between biological men and women is a myth.

    There are physical differences. Especially in hormones and bone density (which do not deteriorate after transition).

    Just as you are who you are, and that should be celebrated- the truth is the truth, and trans people competing with biological females on a physical level is deeply unfair. When something isn't fair its immoral to support it.

    Can you see where I'm going here? We need public scientific literacy, this is absurd.

  24. Ok… I could not support my son playing as a female. It's unfair to the other women. Period. Bottom line. It's not fair.

  25. You SIR are a cheat. You are no different than an athlete that takes steroids or HGH. You do not deserve to compete with women. If you had morals you would not compete against women since you are a biological Male but since you dont you take away a spot from a deserving woman. Shame on you!

  26. What a cheat, no matter how you spin this it is wrong! You want to be a woman, go for it, but you should be disqualified from competing in girl sports. I blame all these feminist who say women and men are totally equal! not physically this is proof.

  27. Womens olympics will be all male soon… honestly include a third category or make everyone but females compete together this is utter insanity

  28. How does he even live with himself knowing hes outright cheating?? Just sas & pathetic that hes allowed to play with the womens team.

  29. This does it, I will try out for my college's female football/soccer team! I wasn't good enough for the men, but i'll just claim to be trans and i'll make the women's! 🙂

  30. the coach is a dumbass, "strong power and very tall" MAYBE CAUSE IT'S A MAN ? How do you get a paycheck

  31. Mmmm, whenever I watch my girl friends' volleyball games, you can see that they put a lot of effort in serving the ball. When I watch my guy friends game, they would tap it and it would literally fly over the net and sometimes bounce out on the other side

  32. Athletics and volleyball especially is based around teamwork and being close enough to gain trust. Putting others down for their differences is not in any way like that. Let them be, sure they’re strong, but eventually everyone has a breaking point and if you push someone that far, it won’t be worth it.

  33. Real women have period pain.
    Transgender women do not period pain. Transgender women do not have an experience feeling bad time during period pain. Transgender women still a male. How many hormone pill they takes transgender women still a males. That the facts that can not change.

  34. Myth…….bullshit. YOU have male muscle mass and strength. I am sorry, transgender women, should not be competing athletically with women. IT ABSOLUTELY is not fair to genetic women.

  35. Of course theyre supportive, he is on their team, wait until theyre on the other side taking a zinger to the face from a man

  36. feel sorry for the girl that misses out on her dream place on the volley team because of this delusional fetishist

  37. the left has wanted to get rid of competitive sports for ever…..this is how they are going to do it…just make it so unpalatable that no one will watch it…the left is cancer….

  38. That means I can say I'm trans then play with women no questions asked. Doesn't make any sense to me.

  39. Male priveledge is also the ability to become a woman and trounce the competition … benefitting from a different frame and perhaps the self confidence that men are handed. This not a civil rights issue. Otherwise sport is just a kind of art or cultural expression primarily.

  40. They should just cut female or male division and only have one. That would save schools lots of money and than only the best compete. Schools can Create a non-competitive club that everyone can compete and play in for fun.

  41. this is a big issue that needs to be fixed. You cannot compete against biological women with the body of a man its not fair to the other women who have trained so hard to get there. This may not seem as bad in volley ball but it sets a dangerous precedent that will get women seriously injured. If this becomes the accepted norm then i will have to look away from every combat sport as women are going to get pummeled.

  42. just make 4 divisions on sport.
    1. born male division
    2. born female division
    3. trans male division
    4. trans female division

  43. I don't understand why there are feminists who are against this. Is she not feminine? Did you not ask for emasculation? Do you not want more men to embrace femininity? So please stop your bias as it is bigotry according to your own logic. Please be consistent. Be inclusive to transwomen and let them play sports as women. Plus, you already believe that women are better at everything than men. Well she's a woman so let her shine. Let her do well and stop complaining. If a man calls her a man on TV you'll go nuts but now you're calling her a man! No! You don't get to do that. She's a woman now and she should compete in a woman's sports category. Let her win it for the ladies. Shout out to many transwomen getting into shape and sports!

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